I Love to See the Temple

Back in primary we used to sing all the time called "I Love to see the Temple" and that has pretty much been my theme song for the last couple weeks.  Here are the lyrics.

I Love to see the Temple
I'm going there some day
To feel the Holy Spirit
To listen and to pray
For the Temple is a house of God
A place of love and beauty
I'll prepare myself while I am young
This is my sacred duty

I Love to see the Temple
I'll go inside someday
I'll cov'nant with my Father
I'll promise to obey
For the Temple is a holy place
Where we are sealed together
As a child of God I've learned this truth
A fam'ly is forever.

I can not fully express how much more this song means to me now then what it did just a month ago.  It is true I have always loved to see the temple, when they were building the Albuquerque New Mexico Temple every week my family would go out of our way to drive by it and see the progress on our way home from church.  Even though we couldn't always tell and it usually just consisted of pulling over to the side of the road for a minute or two before we turned around and went home it was always great that we went out of our way to do so.  But even then I don't think I ever really fully understood how wonderful the temple truly is. 

Last week I was able to actually go through the temple to receive my own endowments and it was a whirl wind ride from the time I decided to start looking into it and when I went through, it was no more then a month and a half from start to finish.  I started feeling as though maybe I should start looking into it towards the end of February, but I was afraid that my Bishop would tell me no, that I needed to wait until I was older, so I didn't really want to have the rejection.  Then one Sunday my stake had a relief society fireside on Temples, I didn't really want to go because honestly who wants to go to a fireside with just relief society, well my visiting teacher invited me to go with her, so I thought I would be nice and go so I could support her trying to do what she was supposed to.  This fireside changed my life really, it was probably the best fireside I have ever been to and it answered all of my questions and I felt really strongly then that it was time to go see my Bishop.   With going on vacation I wasn't able to go in and see him for two weeks after that but when I did I still wasn't expecting it to happen for a long time, at the earliest being late in the summer.  When I brought it up I was nervous, I didn't know what to say or how he would take it, I had no need to be.  I walked out with a temple recommend that day.  Over the next week I got my second interview which was with a wonderful man who was just so excited for me he could barely contain it, and I had another meeting with my Bishop so he could talk to me more about what was going to happen.  It just so happened that the timing of all of this seems to have been meant to be.  My parents were both able to come out since my mother has a broken leg and it just so happened that my dad ended up getting several job interviews while he was out here for that week, it was really divine intervention in my opinion.

April 9th, I was able to go through and it was literally the best experience I have ever had, everyone kept telling me that it was a once in and eternity opportunity, and it truly was.  Since then I have done 2 more sessions aside from my own and some sealings.  I am so grateful that I live so close to the temple, I keep feeling like I need to go back every day and spend some time there, I even went this afternoon after church and sat in the parking lot for an hour just so I could be close to the house of the Lord.  The Temple is the House of the Lord and he is there just waiting for me to come and visit with him, and I am always impatient to get back there once I leave.  I love to see the Temple, it is the peace in my life that I have been searching for for a very long time, nothing can reach me while I am there.  I am very glad that I didn't have to wait until I was getting married or going on a mission to go through I am grateful for this time that I have to be able to savor the experience I have had and to work on my relationship with my Father in Heaven.

100th POST!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Over 3 years ago I started this blog and now the time how come that I have finally reached my 100th blog post and what a road it has been to get to this post.  When I realized a couple months ago that I was getting close to my 100th post I decided that I should look back and see what has happened since I have started.  My life is no where close to what it was 3 years ago and I am so grateful for that because I am pretty sure I have changed for the better.  When I started this blog I was a 19 year old who had discovered to much about life and looking for away to make it better, and although it was hard and the road was long I have finally found that better life I was looking for.  It isn't what I had imagined and I am not where I thought I would be but I am finally fully happy with where I am in my life, no that is not so say that I wouldn't be okay with finding a husband and starting a family or doing something other then working in a grocery store but I can honestly say I am happy with my self, with my life and with all the things that the Lord has in store for me.

3 years ago I moved to Virginia, this was one of the best choices I ever made, some of my friends said I was running away from the things of my past, and I guess in a way I was but I wouldn't change my experience for the world.  I loved the time I spent in Virginia, I learned so much, made some great friends and was able to heal and experience life away from my parents.  I loved seeing all the history of the country and I can not wait to be able to go back and explore some more, someday I will make it back there again.

After Virginia I moved back home, this may not have been the best move for me except that I was able to finish my schooling and I was able to realize that all the things I thought I missed while I was in Virginia weren't worth it, so when it came time for me to leave home again I was able to do it and not feel the need to look back... That move brought me to Utah.

I started out in Provo Utah which there were things I liked and things I had issues with, I had my first experience with roommates which could have gone better and my job wasn't the best but I was able to meet several great people and make pretty good friends out of them.  It wasn't an easy place to live for me, my ward although friendly I was never able to get involved with and I never really got to know my bishop like what I felt I needed too, but again these experiences thought me so much.  Although my life had already changed a lot by this point it wasn't until I made this last move the I feel like it really started to move forward.

I now live in South Jordan Utah, I have a pretty good job, it still isn't my favorite but it allows me to live where I am and take care of myself.  I am starting to get to know many great people in my gigantic ward and most importantly I have a bishop that has striven to get to know me as an individual and help me to progress in away that didn't seem to possible to me for a long time.  I now know that life is great, that I have many great things in store for my future and that this Journey I am on is an amazing journey regardless of what happens.

Now if you have made it this far in this post then congratulations, I know its long but it was more so for me to be able to look back and see the progress I have made in my life. I have so many things to be grateful for.  My relationship with my Heavenly Father is stronger then what it ever has been before.  This up coming week I get to make a big step in my life that I have been looking forward to for years because of the relationship I have been striving to gain with Heavenly Father and the relationship I have been working on with myself.  I am thankful for this life I have been given, the experiences I am able to have and I am glad I can share those experiences on my blog with those I care about. 

Here is to the next 100th posts to come and the experiences and adventures that life has in store for me.