The past couple days I have been reflecting on the last 9 months and what all has happened in my life and how hopefully I have changed for the better. When I decided to move out to Virginia I having a lot of emotional problems and was hoping that distance from life would change that, I was sad to leave my friends, my family and most of all my kitten to be honest. But I was ready and needed a new start. Now 9 months later I am still probably pretty emotional... That really bugs me, but I have gained so many new experiences, and I am moving back home to finish school. I hope that as I move back I can continue to grow and become a better person, I am hoping that I am a better person then what I was 9 months ago but I will let you be the judge of that one.
1. The most important thing that I have learned is that the Lord comes first in my life. Before I moved out here I was having lots of problems reading my scriptures and saying my prayers so my testimony was suffering, but I have really taken the time to work on those things and becoming closer to my Father in Heaven and I have become a much happier person in my everyday life. President Henry B. Eyring gave a wonderful talk last weekend that really touched me about putting my trust in the Lord which I really needed to hear. I also feel that there are sometimes when I am really pleading to the Lord for something and its like he is just laughing and smiling at me saying no I don't think so, just be patient, and for those of you who know me, I am about as patient as my three year old nephew.
2. My parents are my two favorite people, and not just because my dad is taking me to DisneyWorld for my birthday, but because they are always there for me when I need them, yes sometimes it takes a few phone calls to get to talk to them but they are always there when I need help and guidance in my life. That is something I really took for granted while I was living back home.
3. My sisters are my best friends, yes I don't see them often, and yes I don't talk to them as much as what I probably should but the fact that they are my sisters and the fact that they are there for me when I need them is pretty amazing, I love being able to rely on them for sisterly advice.
4. School is extremely important, without an education you get to do what I have been doing for the past 6 months at work.... which isn't always that pleasant, so even though I have no clue what I want to do when I grow up I know that I need an education so I don't have to be a house keeper for forever.
5. My kitten has turned into a teenager.
6. I still Hate boys, it has come and gone over the past few months but I have decided that I hate them, they are horrible. They really have no consideration for feelings and always want to you be someone different from who you are.... My father, brother in laws and nephews are not in that category just to say before people start getting on my tail for that, but the rest of the male population are.
7. I have learned that I need to do what makes me as a person happy.
8. I have realized that I trust way to easily and a lot of the times I trust the wrong people way to easily. And because of that I end up with low self esteem and a broken heart.
Ok so I don't really know where all of this is headed, or even how it compares through the last 9 months if I have changed or not, I really hope that I have changed for the better,for myself and for the Lord because that is all that matters. I only have 16 days left of work and 23 days until I leave and today I am not sure about how I feel about it, I think I might be more nervous about going back then what I was when I came out here.